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Surrounded by broken glass, had the vase shattered once more.

Like wet sand had the speckles splintered my blood soaked fingers,

Holding my heart, filling the holes, scraping the surface to find a new layer

A new me, hidden under the scarred flesh, my precious Pride stood across the room, frozen.

The mirror I once admired, darkness reflected before me

Where had my Motivation fled?

Chaos no longer dances with me, all of what that was the crowd now against the wall, staring.

My heart, rid of crying, complaining, cursing and criticizing, all but a fragile bulb filled with hurt

Too tight and it shall melt away onto the dust this vase once was

Too loose and it shall fall into the wrong hands

Free Of Pain

Hang me out to the wind and reveal my broken skin

Bruises deep within, only scratches are left for proof

All that show who I am, I am not me

I am not who you think I may be, because of these

All that display who I have been

I am not defined by them but they are all you see

Hidden behind the veins of hurt

I am no longer beautiful

My heart no longer bleeds

My eyes no longer cry for love

My body, broken by your words

My hands, they cover my shame

Sunny days, now painful

And the clouds remind me of my wounds

All of that I am I cannot be anymore

I am broken and no longer deserve to be

Free of my wounds

Free of my shame

Free of your words

Free of pain

Free of me, who I used to be

Shattered

White. Hot. Flash
Fragmented times
Swift. Random. Lights
I've seen them all,

Your back to me; fists held stiff
I couldn't tell
My tears weren't enough
I couldn't scream how much you mean as you leave
My throat was in pain,
My chest struggled to lift what's become like lead over my heart

Red. Cold. Silence
Heated fading pain now stabbed my fingers as you walk away
Why are my feet glued to where I endure my worst?
Where the hole torn by your leave now gives me the chills
Bare my chest you could see the fear in my veins, blue at the surface
In my mind I scramble to find the ability to breathe

Turn around.
Turn. Around.
Hear my scream as I have now for the tenth time in my mind.
Where my pain finds my shattered heart my tears have now showered my face
How my mind can't find the right words to make you understand
The war between logic and love behind my eyes,
Watching your back now as you slam the door in my face

I guess this is it.
Internal grief between my heart and mind
How could you be so foolish?
You stupid girl.
You gave it all away.
You hopeless, stupid girl.